i can't believe i forgot about blogging of my L2 outing.. lol.. well, it was GREAT!! though i only went for an hour or so? cos it was a saturday, i had church.. yup.. anyway, i got lost going to huiqian's house although i go dunno how many times le.. well, i warned them before hand that i would need help in directions and told them to come get me when i reach the bus stop.. i totally anticipated that me, the world's biggest direction-sense LOSER, would need help..



but when i reached the bus stop, i tried calling every single one of them.. TWICE.. but, no one answered.. so i decided to venture into the dark and scary roads myself.. there were MULTIPLE cross roads and intersections la.. and i walked around quite abit before i heard tzewei's disturbing laughter, saw smoke and smelt bbq chicken.. and i knew i was saved..



oh well, we had fun eating, talking, laughing.. super fun!! this group of people r truly great.. (: bao kept making sotong balls that were oddly juicy and cold on the inside.. lol.. noeleen was furiously bbq-ing chicken wings.. and the rest of us just ate.. it was a fun night that probably ended too soon.. but... we are jc kids, without a life.. we had work to do when we got back, and bei even had tuition the next morning.. A SUNDAY TUITION!! sigh.. but oh well.. we gotta do what we gotta do.. but it was still great.. (:



anyway, going malaysia soon.. CNY's coming.. can't wait!! it's a highly awaited and DESERVED break... (: i'm gonna make sure i'll come back refreshed.. though there's an econs and maths test waiting for me once CNY ends la.. but, oh well..



im gonna get fat too la.. i just know i'll binge and binge on all the good food.. oh well, that can be lost later in the year.. (i hope) just enjoy now then..


(: cheerios!

phew.. i finally made time to come and update.. ): if i didn't borrow the cds from bryan, i wouldn't be here ripping it into my comp, and thus i wouldn't be here updating this possibly dead blog.. so thank bryan.. this post is gonna be long la.. update on everything at one shot.. lol


well, lots of amazing things have been happening in my life.. well, as most of u know,i'm lonely in nj, as in i have no one to share to about SPIRITUAL stuff.. no one who understands, no one who wants to hear wad i have to say about my wonderful God.. i prayed for someone who would be there for me not just to listen to my worldly problems, but also the spiritual side of things.. and guess wad.. I FOUND HER!!



i really wanna thank God for putting michelle in my life.. she's a great listener, and she understands what i'm going through.. i really thank God for working in her life as well.. on saturday, bro andrew shared on loving the unlovable.. and max kept popping up in my mind.. i was convicted, i wanted to somehow show some love to him this week.. but i found it hard, i didn't know how to go about doing it..



well, today, michelle saw me and told me that on saturday, at her church, the pastor talked about loving the unlovable and she kept thinking of max too.. when i heard it, i shrieked la.. i really did.. lol, i was so excited.. God has indeed placed me in NJ for a reason.. im gonna work with the people around me, and may nj never be the same again..



oh oh... one more thing, some of u may know that there was this pianist in my school who always used to play christian songs alone.. and i always felt convicted to go talk to him, but i never found the courage.. it would kinda look weird if i just went up to talk to a guy rite?!? so i kept procrastinating until finally, he has graduated and i've never spoken to him before.. i regretted, i really did.. i wished i had immediately obeyed God when i felt the prompting.. i thought it was all too late.. but...



last week, after lunch, i heard a really familiar tune fill the canteen.. it took me quite some time to realise it was "still" being played on the piano.. i was so excited!! another christian pianist that God has put in my path in nj.. i was really going to go talk to her.. but i was late for class la.. so i had to rush off.. but the next time i will SURELY go talk to her..



my dream of setting up some form of christian group is nj is getting nearer and nearer within my grasp.. after the valentine's day plan has been implemented, i will have more time and i will plan with shirlene and michelle.. it will happen.. it will!! nj, be prepared for something spectacular.. we are not a force to be reckoned with.. we are God's force..



p/s: please pray for me and for nj.. i really need your prayers to cover the school.. it is hard ground, it really is.. pray that something big will happen.. (: oh, and so far, i haven't found a single christian teacher in nj.. i really need people of authority to implement many things.. so pray for that too..

i'm practically posting on a weekly basis.. sigh.. pathetic rite?.. im stressed out after only 3 weeks, or is it 2 and a 1/2 weeks... can't wait for CNY la.. im broke too..keep the ang pows coming in!!..


anyway, as you can see.. multi colour is back.. i prefer it.. so heck with esther's preferences la.. lol.. went for ignite conference these few days and it was awesome! learnt so much.. and the pastor is like good looking.. LOL!! but he's married, sadly for lisa.. who's desperately trying to find a husband..


lemme help her advertise then.. guys in the age range of 24 to 30, listen up!!


if you are interested in smart women with law degrees.. lisa's the one for u!! of cos u have to try to overlook the fact that she might look slightly older than u(she kinda looks mid-thirties).. she's around 1.52 cm, so short guys.. U R IN FOR A TREAT!! as for the weight, umm... sensitive issue.. LOL! she plays the piano, and a little guitar.. she loves God, and ME! and she's a little crazy sometimes... just a little la.. not like she goes around brandishing a knife and threatening to kill you kind.. but, she's just a little eccentric.. below is a picture of her being relatively normal..


















interested?? please call 1900- i-am-desperate.. NOW!!


lol... dear lisa... dun be angry la... this is all in good fun.. lol.. LOVE YA!!

p/s: umm, guys, this is a joke.. please dun call that number.. i know lisa seems very appealing.. but... just dun call ok.. (:

i am going crazy.. i seriously am..


STOP PILING UP STUFF ON ME!! I WILL EXPLODE SOON!! i honestly think i tore a few hundred strands of my hair out in frustration already..


gimme a break ok? please..


anyway esther said she hates reading my blog when it's multi coloured.. so i guess it'll be one post one colour now then..


argh... i'm tired, frustrated, worn out, and i really wanna just throw in the towel now.. this sucks, it really sucks.. i can't believe how things have turned out.. i have a right to be frustrated, seriously..


plus, i have to handle more than one thing now.. so please, i dont wanna be balding at a tender young age of 17.. please stop making me wanna tear all my hair out..

i have GREAT NEWS!!! it's a miracle!!...



I AM OFFICIALLY 156CM!!!!



wow, i managed to squeeze out another cm.. coolio.. haha, anyway, i am very very happy nowadays!! cool huh?.. i think this year is gonna be a great year for me.. it's like, though i am stressed out with all the work coming in(and it's freakin alot can), i am just happier.. and i can cope much better than last year..



i think it's the extra time i have now.. after freeing myself up that is.. but soon after interact and drama start, i might be busy again.. oh well, at least i know i'll be enjoying myself at my cca.. oh oh.. and also, recently, i got to know quite a few njcians whom i have never met or talked to before.. and it's like completely unplanned and i dunno why but somehow i just feel comfortable talking to strangers now!!


haha.. anyway, i think on saturdays i'll be even more tied up than i already am.. because of stupid joson.. haha, he told me he'll come to church if i sign up for this chingay cip thing.. and so i did.. and every sat i have to go RP from 8 to 12.. sigh.. even saturday have to wake up early leh now!! but it'll be worth it.. cos he promised me he'll go in march.. right now his saturdays are busy with his concert stuff..



great great.. giving up some sleep can get cip hours and get people to come church.. not bad la.. lol.. my hope is that joson will drag zixin to come too.. and slowly, more and more njcians!! whoo whoo!! i must be a person of impact!! i must i must..



(: cheerios!!

i have a new goal in life.. or rather a new vision.. this is kinda random i guess, but..

i wanna be a person who changes lives.. i wanna be the kind of person who after dying, people still remember who i am.. i wanna be someone whom people will point at my grave and say, " she has changed my life"


kinda, i dunno.. corny rite? but i just really really want that.. haha.. i dun wanna live a wasted live.. i wanna be an impact to this world.. millions, billions of people have lived and died.. but how many have really made an impact?


we say we wanna be Christ- like.. well, one of the things Jesus did was to IMPACT the world.. He changed it forever!! well, what are we currently doing with our lives? getting caught up in having fun? in working, in studying, in trying to be accepted by the world?


why do we try so hard to be accepted by the world? if u think about it, Jesus wasn't accepted by like almost His whole community.. why are we wasting the precious time we have on this earth doing stupid things to get "accepted"?..


i sure dun wanna be regretful when i reach heaven.. i wanna be able to say to God, " i have given my whole life to serving u".. i dun want the words, " i could have done more!!" to ever leave my mouth.. because while i spend this limited amount i have on earth, it will be spent to the fullest..


to be a passionate Christian of godly influence...
YUP!! that's me...

the trip to lisa's house was... eventful.. haha.. surprising arrival of her parents.. trying out guitar hero III for the first time (and rocking at it!!).. watching hannibal rising and dead silence (which scared the heck out of me.. i think my life was shortened by at least 10 years thanks to that).. telling lisa wad's on my mind.. feeling better after that.. (: oh, and learning how to make one of darius's fave foods.. the prata thing.. im gonna seduce him with my heavenly cooking skills..



haha, eew... paedophillic man.. anyway, i had a good holiday.. a great one in fact.. and now that it has ended.. it's back to school.. and im feeling blue.. (wow, i totally just rhymed that..)



anyway, school has been alright la.. i would say it wasn't as bad as i expected it to be.. but it wasn't like fun or anything.. anyway, im gonna hold true to my new year's resolution, of staying back in school to study and do my homework everyday that i have time for.. i have less than 10 mths till A levels.. and my J1 work sucked... it sucked badly.. so must catch up and everything..



like my teacher said, the december holidays that just passed is going to be the last holiday for me until A levels are completed.. i promise to uphold her words.. and not allow myself to slack and waste time especially during the school holidays.. sigh.................



btw, i promised myself that last year.. oh well.. HAHA!! studying's not my thing!! ARGH.. ok anyway, i have a new CT and she's young, pretty and very nice... she seems to enjoy crappy people and likes to laugh.. YES!!! FINALLY!! no more stuffy old boring teacher!! i can crap more during class..



i felt so oppressed last year.. had to suppress myself from bursting into laughter whenever me and michelle were fooling around(wad are u thinking of?!) .. had to maintain my nonsense to a minimal level.. now, with a super funny GP teacher, a super nice econs/civics tutor, a super everything-and-anything-goes chinese teacher and a super sweet chem teacher.. life in J2 might just be.... good! (: now just as soon as i plot a way to get rid of mr chew and mrs khoo, life'll be perfect..



i can feel it.. 2008 is gonna be so special.. not just cos it's A levels year, but spiritually.. i can really really feel it.. more for my members than for me though.. but i really feel that this year is gonna be different.. lives are gonna be changed, and not just superficially.. but really deeply..



there's so much to learn about God that we can spend an eternity learning about Him.. think about it!! think about your lives now.. if there's so much more depth in God that you can venture into, what's holding u back? wad's stopping u from diving in? diving into God's word, God's love, God's power, God's glory... diving into God's arms?..

dive in today, and experience so much more.. are you satisfied already? well, there's more to it, i promise you.. so so much more..