tml marks the end of the horrer called pw.. after op, i'll be FREE FREE FREE from pw forever!!! however, i would like to say that although pw created so much stress, i would still be willing to do it all over again.. it's because of pw that i made awesome friends like zixin and michelle anyway.. (:
*bliss...*



oh ya, speaking of zixin.. IM SO HAPPY!!



it started when i was LATE FOR MY A LEVEL chinese.. ya, and i told her that i was caught in a jam.. and she told me to pray, pray that the jam would clear.. well i did la and it did clear..



but all the while i was thinking, y would she ask me to pray.. lol.. so when we were going home together i asked her.. when she asked me to pray, she meant pray to who..



and she said God la.. and i was like what? then she said, i believe u know.. i believe in God.. i pray to Him sometimes.. and He answers my prayers.. she then smiles..



ok, all this while my face was in the totally distorted, cannot believe wads happening, kind of face.. then she told me that in her first 3 months of ACJC, whenever there was monday chapel, she would really learn alot of things and it really stayed with her..



she said it really helped her along the way and stuff.. WHOO... open door open door.. so i asked her to come to church la.. she said she'd think about it.. but she's a little afraid cos some churches teach the wrong things.. WOW!! she even knows that!! haha.. yay.. im so excited..



unfortunately im going to malaysia this weekend and will only be able to bring her next week.. well cell mates.. be prepared to witness another njcian in church.. hur hur.. i'll make sure we'll flood the whole place one day.. (((:



:) cheerios

i had the worst MRT experience ever.. it's really the worst of the worst.. cannot get worse than this.. sigh...


well, i was sitting in the middle of the row of seats.. and the 2 seats beside me were empty.. after awhile, this guy came to sit beside me.. he had a few packs of TCM (traditional chinese medicine) herbs in his hands and boy did those packs stink.. seriosly.. smelt like poo plus puke or something..



it smelt super bad, but my feet hurt cos i've been walking the whole day, so i just leaned my body to the other side so get away from the smell without looking rude by actually moving seats..



then, another guy sat beside me.. he smelt a little weird, but still better than the TCM guy.. but after a while, i found out why he smelt a little weird..



he started digging his nose FURIOUSLY!!.. i was so disguested!! i tried to ignore it.. then later, he started rubbing his eyes.. i was like DUDE!! u're gonna have sore eyes!!.. u filthy thing..



after a few minutes, he started digging his nose again.. this time, it was horrible..



he ROLLED and FLICKED.. and i actually SAW the thing that he flicked out from his nose FLY and land on the floor super near my shoe..



AHHH!!!... i know right?!?? so this time.. i leaned towatds the TCM guy, cos i was willing to sacrifice my nose to avoid that weird man!!



by then there was no more other seat for me to move to.. and stupid me was still too tired to choose to stand somewhere..



i was enduring the horrible smell and the guy.. who by the way was still digging his nose.. seriously, how big is his nostril..



and then the final straw came.. that was when i really couldn't take it no more..



i smelt a fart smell.. no prize in guessing where it was coming for.. i almost saw steam coming out of that digger's butt...



so i stood up, walked to the other end of the cart and stood there.. frowning..



sigh.. we need more considerate people in this world.. ):


anyway,


:) cheerios

** long post again.. warned u before it'll be coming wad.. haha*

i trusted God, and in the end what happened??.. WHAT HAPPENED?!?!??!!?
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He didnt let me down of cos!! wad were u thinking?.. u of little faith.. haha



i was talking to ms chong(civics tutor) about my grades and i asked her how now brown cow?.. *ok i didnt really say that, wanted to though, heh heh..*


me: ms chong, how? i cannot keep my 4H2 right? is there anyway i can appeal or something?..

ms chong: wad r u talking about? it's not like we are gonna force u to drop..

me: YES!! the HOD came to talk to me last time and said if i don't get a D D S S, i must drop..

ms chong: but u r not even in the list of students that need to drop..

me: huh? really? so i dun need to drop?!?

ms chong: ya, dun need, but recommended la.. look at your grades!!
*then she goes into a long speech on how i must improve blah blah blah..*



i kinda switched off already la by then.. after realising i dun need to drop my combi, my head was spinning and i blocked out everything.. i was estatic!


so ya, God brought me through.. and i believe with all my heart, He will bring u through too wang..


but then, i keep experiencing UPS and DOWNS.. like seriously.. i feel like an israelite..


remember when we were young christians and when we read the israelites story, on how they were delivered out of slavery by God, but still often complained and disobeyed Him, doubted Him, even after miracle after miracle?..


well i always thought they were horrible people.. like how can they do that?! God split the freaking RED SEA for them and a moment later they were worshipping some lao pok bull..


i thought they were horrid Christians, but this week, God showed me how i was just like them..


let's start off with results day.. i got back GP and maths first and i got C for both of them.. which was pretty good for me.. i expected a D for both.. and i was thanking God profusely!!.. i thought He'd deliver me..


then came chem, econs and bio.. i did badly for all of them and then i turned around and DEMANDED an answer from God.. Y GOD DID U FORSAKE ME AND MADE ME FAIL?!?.. sound israelite-like? totally..


and when i found out i could retain my 4H2, i worshipped God! gave Him all the glory.. i reached home to announce the good news and my dad told me that the house that we were supposed to buy was sold off!! we were on the brink of signing the papers, and the stupid agent went to sell it off last min to another family who offered a measly $2000 more than us.. like wth?!?


yup, i asked God again.. y He had to ruin my good mood.. y did He allow this terrible fate to befall on us.. what now? we sold our house already, but we can't find a house to actually move into?!? i started worshipped a lao pok bull didnt i?..


often we are like that.. once disaster falls on us we forget EVERYTHING that God did for us in a SECOND.. we could even start cursing God.. y? y are we such hypocrites?!?


what i wanna say is to come out of that vicious cycle.. remember the deeds and blessing God has done for u whenever u are faced with difficulty.. what makes u think He cannot bring u through it again?..


so ya, although this post is to encourage wang, cell mates, this is for u too..


always remember that the God who snatched u up from the claws of death is all powerful, all loving.. a God that will never let u down.. let your backs never turn against Him.. let your eyes always be upon Him..


remember what He has done for u, what He can do for u.. and never doubt Him.. trust in the Lord with ALL your hearts, souls, minds and strength.. trust that He delivered u once, and He will do it again..


**ps, this blog suddenly become so christainy rite? lol.. nonsensical crap the next post, i promise.. haha.. though i love my christiany posts.. (: **


:) cheerios

i would like to say i've happily accepted all my results but i can't..

chinese: A
GP: C
maths: C
econs: E
bio: S
chem:U

yup, if u're observant enough u would be able to tell that i cannot keep my 4H2.. shocker of the year huh.. *rolls eyes*


thanks tzewei, hearing your voice was comforting.. sigh.. anyway, i did ask God y.. y was i let down.. y did things turn out the way they did.. but all i heard from Him was, " do u trust me?"


do i trust God?.....


do i really?......


yes i do..


He was the one that put me in NJ, y would He just let me suffer and rot there?..


i know He loves me too much to let me come into any hurt.. i know that He loves me so much all He wants is the best for me.. so i hold on to that and believe..


whether i successfully appeal to keep my combi, or i have to drop it and change class.. i know it'll all be alright..


just like when i cried in p6 cos i didn't make it to RV, and ended up in BP.. i know everything will end up better than i can ever expect..



cos im not going to belittle what God is going to offer me.. cos i know if i hold on to Him, everything will be alright..


and everything is alright..


i love u God.. and nothing will ever change that (:

ok.. monday is approaching.. the dreaded 22nd.. where all my failures would be placed in front of me.. i expect waterfalls down my cheeks.. but i want to trust that everything would be alright.. that even if i have to drop my 4H2s and change class, it would be alright.. i want to trust that God has something planned for me in my life.. i want to trust..


ok anyway i got back my chinese and i got A la.. like the highest in my class, but my class is a lousy class, so though i just scraped an A, 71 (total score with everything added le), i still was the highest.. joke man joke.. lol


oh, and mr chew sorta revealed that i got D for maths.. and as long as i get like 52 and above im safe.. my overall will be a D lo.. ok, so 2 subjects down.. not so bad wad u say? those are my best subjects DUDE!!.. lol.. wadever, dun wanna think about unhappy things le..


but i do wanna say that...... CONGRATS TO ABI-JOY!! getting top 10 in level for end of year exams.. good job good job.. and also all those who did well for their exams, or at least better than usual, congrats! (: give all glory to God.. if i miraculously make it and can keep my 4H2, u can rest assured that'll be a super long post thanking God.. lol


lots have been happening in my life.. in school and out of school.. but im so lazy to blog nowadays.. depriving u poor people from reading wonderful blog entries.. lol.. im starting to sound like abi.. NOnOnoOooo... so ya, my fat fingers are too fat to be lifted and placed down on old and yellowish keyboard keys too many times.. so im gonna end it here.. lol.. like very abrupt rite?.. oh well..


(: cheerios..

okok, this is a little belated.. but the L2 outing was FUN FUN FUN!!


fine fine.. some may not think it isn't as fun as i thought it was.. i admit it's my fault it's my fault.. curse my absolutely non-existent sense of direction..


yes, WE GOT LOST!! the plan was to eat at this yummy tze char place that my dad brought the family to eat before.. i thought it'll be no prob to get there since it's rather near to batok mrt station.. i was deathly wrong..


well, daddy said any bus can go there.. i forced him to name some cos i was really scared we would lose our way.. so he did..


daddy: alot la.. umm, 187, 66, 157..
me: orh.. kk


in the end.. the first bus that came was 187.. and we boarded, since it was in the list of the correct buses.. lo and behold!! it made a wrong turn (ok technically we took the wrong bus so it made a right turn la..) and before you could say "sarah has no sense of direction and it runs in the family", we got lost..


bao and noeleen wanted to go back to westmall to eat like subway of something.. tzewei was going crazy.. i am TOTALLY SERIOUS.. a hungry man is an angry man? it's really the first time i saw this actually happen.. it was like i was watching the hulk..


okok, but it's my fault.. so anyway, we decided to walk back to the previous bus stop to take another bus to get there.. so we walked and we walked.. i dunno why but my leg hurt.. and i was limping a little but no one cared!! they were all too busy.. distracted by the hulk.. only wang cared.. hur hur


so anyway, we took another bus and paranoid me got off the bus too early.. we walked and walked and walked somemore.. but we couldn't find the yummy place.. it was already 8 plus when we were supposed to meet at 6 at batok mrt.. ))): so we just setlled for some other place to eat.. it was still quite good la..


not as good as the one i wanted to eat at though.. )): but i guess we had no choice, with a total retard like me leading the way? we could wander for 40 days.. lol.. and tzewei was scaring me.. really, i was so afraid he would imagine i was a huge steak and start chomping down on me.. u know, like those old cartoons..


but overall it was still fun, but we got home much later than i expected.. i still got to watch ANTM though.. that's enough.. kk, gotta go now..


(: cheerios

sigh *this is a good sigh not a bad one*...


i dunno why recently i feel so much happier.. the calm before the storm perhaps?.. i have no idea..


today i was going home and the bus i took had really powerful air con.. super cold and strong.. it felt so good as the cold wind gushes through your hair.. outside the bus, the sun was setting.. and the warmth of the sun on my cheeks as the sun was going down felt very nice indeed..


the coolness of the air con and the warmth from the sun combining to help put sarah into a good mood!.. ya, it was so peaceful.. somemore something really cute happened on my way home in the bus..


as this guy was about to board the bus, he was followed by a golden retreiver that appears to be abandoned as it had no one with him.. well the guy wanted to board and the dog followed him up the bus.. the guy was like, "huh?? how.. " then he walked down the bus again.. the dog followed him down the bus.. then the guy ran up the bus and the bus driver quickly closed the door..


poor dog rite.. but its so cute la!! ok, the golden retriever had a collar on it, so im guessing it's lost or abandoned.. sigh, i want a doggie!! boo.. y do people abandon their pets la?!


anyway, pw overload these few days.. rushing out WR (yes, we're not done yet cos it needs to be PERFECT... -.-), still gotta get STARTED on I&R when quite a few people finished already.. still got the OP slides and scripts to do.. sigh.. PW drives me nuts.. and stupid Hua Tuo is just so boring..


but today, me michelle and zixin had a really nice long chat.. just talking about random stuffs and it was really fun.. i love having another spastic person in NJ.. do u even have the faintest idea how hard it is to find spastic people in NJ?!? sigh.. i love michelle.. and zixin, always so motherly.. i know i can always talk to her about anything.. yay, im happy!..


not forgetting nao la, my source of encouragement.. NJ is totally not the place to go guy-watching, but if you dig deep enough. u sure can find great friends.. (:


see? im so happy now.. no idea why.. just beginning to enjoy life's simple pleasures.. u really will be so much happier if u're easily satisfied..


and i am satisfied... (:



ok, not with my weight though.. i still wanna lose AT LEAST another 3 kg before the start of holidays.. do-able? i dunno.. just gotta go run more often.. im so lazy seriosuly.. lol


okok, i know this entry is kinda random.. so i shall end here..


(: cheerios

**warning: long post ahead.. **

i have a new favourite song!! i know it's kinda cliche and everyone loves it.. but it's honestly Hosanna.. it's so so so so so meaningful and i feel like tearing everytime i sing it..

and there is no such thing as hearing or singing it too many times cos everytime u listen to it it's a new experience..

kudos to blacks and varma's blog for allowing me to listen to it over and over again.. im a total noob at trying to download songs..

of cos i gotta disable the power ranger song once i reach their blog site though.. lol.. sorry, private joke huh, for those who never been to their blog before..

lyrics:

Verse 1
i see the King of Glory
coming on the clouds with fire
the whole Earth shakes
the whole Earth shakes

Verse 2
i see His love and mercy
washing over all our sins
the people sing
the people sing

Chorus
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the Highest
Hosanna
Hosanna
Hosanna in the Highest

Verse 3
i see a generation
rising up to take their place
with selfless faith
with selfless faith

Verse 4
i see a near revival
stirring as we pray and seek
we're on our knees
we're on our knees

Chorus

Bridge
Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you
have loved me

Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything i am for your kingdom's cause
As i walk from earth into eternity

Chorus

**END**

i especially love the bridge.. wow.. tearing already.. lol.. learning the true meaning of worship has really been.. amazing.. my life is awesome..

hearing God's voice everytime you pray, tearing everytime you think of His awesome glory.. i love God, i love Him so so much..

but most importantly, He loves me SO MUCH more than i love Him, and lemme tell you that's a WHOLE lot..
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anyway, moving on.. i have finally decided to do it.. after bearing this burden for so long, just the thought of going to do it leaves me in high spirits.. only nao will truly understand, but perhaps in due time all of you will..

but my eyes are swollen today cos of what happened yesterday.. it feels like my eyes can't open fully.. my eyelids are like FAT.. lol, seriously..

AHH!! ohmigosh, i just can't stop trying to express my love for God.. im doing it again!! i love God i love God i love God.. oh and btw, yes, im still listening to Hosanna.. LOL

lots have been going through my mind, in my life.. and with the countless times that i just had to break down and cry, i am truly grateful for my parents, my friends and most importantly, my God..

i wonder how in this stressful stressful world, with so much crap being thrown at you everyday, people can actually survive with their sanity without a God..

sigh, i know i know.. non-christians reading this are gonna exit this site right about
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but pardon me for expressing my UTMOST LOVE to my God..

sigh, like Pastor Daniel always says.. or rather he always says that this famous scientist says that, " how can we just rule that there is no God without studying it for ourselves first?"

yes, later that scientist, who was an atheist all His life, became a Christian because He went to study Christianity and found that it was the truth..

even Darwin, yes that guy who claimed all humans came from monkeys, at his deathbed, asked for his most valuable book.. and when his assistants gave him his whole research materials of evolution, Darwin said, no.. he wanted his Bible..

but who can blame humans, afterall, we are one skeptical species..

when archeologists found Noah's Ark, when scientists found chariot wheels belonging to the Eypgtians at the bottom of the Red Sea, people merely scoffed and said there weren't true even though proof was slammed right into their face..

yes yes.. still listening to Hosanna

i am gonna read Revelations today for Quiet Time and im so excited..

oh and MISSION TRIP... how God blessed me with the $700 provision so i can go makes me even more excited.. cos i know if God provided for it, i must be in store for something so awesomely awesome!!

okok, i know my vocab is kinda limited.. keep using awesome.. but you gotta admit very few words can describe a God so mighty..

mighty! thats another word i used to describe God.. lol..

okok, i know most of you are bored by now.. and though i am SOOOO not bored writing all of these.. i shall stop..

but i do hope that after reading this entire long entry, God has touched your heart, and rekindled the love and passion you once had for Him, and even more..

and for non-christians, i pray this has planted a seed of curiosity in you.. a curiosity that you will quench.. a curiousity that will spark your heart to hunger for the TRUTH

cos the truth shall set you free.. free from the bondages of sin.. free from the emptiness of your life.. afterall, haven't you ever thought of the meaning or purpose of your life?..

:) cheerios..

p/s: still listening... heh heh

crap... bio was crap.. serious crap.. now my maths and chem better pass or else!!.. cos i seriously have no confidence of passing at all.. MAYBE an E.. lol, i know i know.. blame it on myself.. but seriously how to study knowing that there is only one paper left?!

in O level chem i also couldnt pull myself together and study for the dang last paper-chem.. so i got a B3.. lol, totally deserved it.. i thought i would do worse though.. cos i didnt touch organic chem and all the nonsense air and water crap.. and metals too or something like that.. cant remember..

so anyway, ya, i only skimmed through pro and eukaryotes, DNA genomics, and cancer.. and LO AND BEHOLD!! i think a safe 65 to 70% of these 3 chapters came out.. i was desperately trying to dig out the "info" i had in my brain about these darn topics but nothing much came out.. it's like having constipation?.. u know when u are trying desperately to squeeze the shit out, but then after sweating buckets, only a tiny piece came out..

dun act like u dunno what im talking about.. lol... ok, but it is kinda gross, but whatever..

so anwyay, i'm trying hard to forget all the screwed up papers that i did and concentrate on having FUN!! though i still have chem SPA on thurs.. which i still have to study for.. which i am so not doing right now.. sigh....... oh well, i'll do it later i promise.. *crosses fingers*

gotta go blog surfing now.. it's been long since i read many blogs.. bb **ps qian? notice i used the rainbow colours in order? haha.. **