ok, i know i've been mia for quite awhile.. i've been busy with work.. LOTS OF WORK.. im really buckling down and im so proud of myself!! haha.. it's really been hard on me ok.. but i think it's too late now.. as in, there's really too much to do and i have no choice but to skip some.. chem probably.. i hate it.. i got U all year round.. lol!! my worse subject..


anyway, i decided to blog all of a sudden because.. lots have been going on in my puny brain.. and i just wanna release some angst..


well firstly, i now honestly truly and totally believe that there is beauty in imperfection.. whether we're too short, too fat, too short AND fat.. too tall, too thin.. blah blah blah.. well, basically when are we ever perfect?? answer is NEVER!! so why not be happy being the imperfect people whom we are right now??


why waste time, energy and a whole lot of tears in trying to strive for perfection when it doesn't even exist?! if you ask the most beautiful person in the world what she finds wrong with herself, u can rest assure she'll be able to come up with something.. thus i conclude, no one is perfect, so why strive to be?


by no means i'm trying to say eat and get fat, then obese and die of a heart attack.. but really, stop starving yourself, stop trying to bulk up, stop drinking rice water to grow taller.. (haha, personal attack this one..) God made us the way we are.. why alter it??


and no, im not trying to be a holy saint, sprouting holy messages.. but i dunno.. just somehow, i got convicted this week.. and yes, im the one always saying im fat and should go lose weight.. and i will!! but only because i AM overweight and SHOULD lose weight.. all you people whose weight is within the normal range, STOP DIETING!!


hmmm... yup, that's one thing off my chest.. lots of others that are too... personal(?) to share.. haha, that's y i can't wait to meet up with lisa.. and sprout everything to her.. (:


p/s: sorry lisa.. u gotta sit and listen.. i dun care!! just too overwhelming for me to contain la.. whahaha

yesterday my emotions were all over the place. haha, happy then sad, then happy then sad.. then hopeful, and disappointed.. but all in all, i had fun yesterday at christmas bash.. hope everyone liked the cookies i baked..


i know it's probably a little too soft, but it's not supposed to be like that! it's supposed to be nice and chewy, but after so many hours it kinda turn mushy..


anyway, after CB, went to watch warlords.. well, the auntie gave us wrong tickets and we went to the wrong theater and ended up watching the first part of national treasure.. i was secretly happy though the guys were totally upset.. after a failed attempt to get them to stay in the theater, we left and went into the right theater..



so we missed the entire first part of warlords, but it was okay.. not much to understand anyway, since the entire movie is just people killing people, people dying, people exploding, people getting parts of their body cut off.. so on and so forth.. gory stuff man..



anyway, on the way home met shiong-gorgor, jeffery and joel in the van.. i hopped on board since they'll drive me to my doorstep.. and jeff( who watched warlords before) was saying how good of a movie it was cos it was very deep.. honestly, it was alright la.. ok, i cant really tell since half the time i'm covering my eyes.. but how deep can a gory movie get!?


but jeff said there's a deep meaning in it.. that the 3 brothers represented different types of characters and how they live their lives.. umm, okok fine.. it could have been deep i guess.. if i wasn't too distracted by body parts strewed everywhere at every scene of the movie.. so ya.. deep people who love gore? warlords is the movie for u!! lol


(: cheerios

i slept for 15 hours straight on thursday, all through till today.. camp wore me out!! but still, it really is the best camp ever.. Pastor Matt Fielder is so annointed and it was awesome.. learned so much.. and had lots of cofirmations from God.. AHH!!! excitement engulfs me..


i have decided.. i am going.. i will go..

William Carey once said “Expect great things from God, attempt great things for God.” But instead I think many of us cross our fingers in hope that God will speak a powerful word to us. And in the meantime we do nothing.

I’ve heard countless numbers of my peers say things like, “I’m just waiting to hear from God.” And in the meantime get slowly sucked in and strapped down by the comforts of job, cash, car, and happening social circles.

DO SOMETHING!! make your life worthy of God's calling.. make your life centered around God..


i have decided.. i am going.. i will go..

You Are a Blue Crayon

Your world is colored in calm, understated, deep colors. You are a loyal person, and the truest friend anyone could hope to find. On the inside, you tend to be emotional and even a bit moody. However, you know that people depend on you. So you put on a strong front. Your color wheel opposite is orange. Orange people may be opinionated, but you feel they lack the depth to truly understand what they're saying.

What Color Crayon Are You?

this is uncanny!! it's especially true for me today.. cos i feel very emo.. haha, must be the rain.. or something else?.. but wadever.. trying to forget it.. going to town later.. must be a happy person!! c'mon sarah!! be happy!! *forced a smile*


this is so not working.. i need more chocolates.. provide me with endorphine.. lemme go scout for chocolates in the house.. seeya

i watched enchanted recently with lisa, edward, 3mao and bimbo.. lemme warn u.. DO NOT EVER WATCH A MOVIE WITH A SCREECHING BIMBO!!


it was totally embarrassing.. i could hear the people behind us shushing her..

"EEE!! the girl is so ugly!!"
"WOW the prince is like so hot la!!"
"she's wearing a tummy wrap.. u can see it!"


a few of the many totally irrelevent comments she made during the course of the movie.. it was really kinda... distracting, to say the least.. haha


anyway, it was an okay movie i guess.. i love the songs.. but we watched it on a friday night and it was like $9.50.. not worth it.. i would say it's worth about $7.. but it was still quite good i guess.. the lead actress's dresses were gorgeous!!


anyway, i wanna thank a few people for making me feel loved over these past few days..


#1: thanks to JERRY a.k.a shancai.. (:
jerry berry gave me a little piggy soft toy on the last day of mission trip.. it's really cute, i named it oink oink.. though we always bicker during the mission trip, i know all is well.. it was great getting to know jerry better through the trip.. and im thankful for his never ending provision of laughter.. (:


#2: my dear tzewei.. he gave me a patrick beanie.. it is so so soft and cuddly.. and i sleep cuddling it every night.. it's really quite big though he says it's small.. i love it to bits.. i carried it out of my bedroom one morning.. holding it like a baby, and my sis told me that i am really weird.. lol, my maternal instincts are kicking in at a tender age of 17!! i just cannot resist the charms of patrick la...


#3: one of my favourite persons in the world!! lisa.. she bought me a huge tin of popcorn (which i can't savour yet cos of my dumb cough) and the tin is square-shaped and on each side is a different expression of spongebob!.. it was torturous lugging the huge tin home, but i love it.. and im counting down the days till i can enjoy what's inside.. lol, and add fats to my already gelatinous body..


ok, that's all for folks.. wanna get special mention on my blog?? gimme a present!! lol.. kidding kidding.. i'm ending this entry.. and in case u haven't noticed, yes.. i am procrastinating the blogging of my mission trip, simply cos it's too much to write.. and im too lazy.. hur hur..


:) cheerios

phew, it's been really long since i last blogged.. just came back from mission trip and have alot to blog about.. but i lazy.. another day la, i will blog one.. but today, i just feel like venting..


i came back with a happy heart only to hear from my dad that one of the canoeist who drowned was an njc teacher.. i got a shock and he showed me the orbituary.. when i saw mr loh's face straing back at me.. i was stunned.. i really was.. i didnt even know he canoes..


he passed away so long ago and i only found out like when i came back.. i felt.. guilty?? i dunno.. although i wasn't very close to him, he is still one of the nicest teacher i have ever met.. ever patient, ever caring..


i will miss him alot.. and somehow my brain doesnt want to register that fact.. i can feel myself rejecting that thought, that idea that mr loh is really gone.. i dunno.. i actually cried, i really did.. surprising huh..


i will miss smiling to him every morning as i see him precariously carrying a cup of coffee down nj's long flight of stairs.. i will miss secretly laughing at his hairless legs.. i will miss admiring his toned muscles that somehow glisten in the sun.. i will miss his smile.. i will miss everything about him..



i read bei's blog after like a million years.. and i saw she posted about mr loh too.. and about how she has become more of an athiest cos of this.. i would ask God sometimes too.. y He would let the people who love Him die just like that.. just because He wants mr loh to be back by His side, He takes away his life?..


how possible is that?.. our God isn't like that.. so i've been praying.. and i just feel that for everything that God does, He has a reason, and a purpose.. and we are to trust that everything He does is for the good of the people that He loves..


just take the korean hostages for example shall we.. when we knew the koreans were taken hostage and a few were actually shot dead, we were questioning God.. we asked Him y He allowed such things to happen to the people who wanted to do His work..


in the end there is a revival happening in the whole middle east region!! people were curious and they started to learn more about christianity.. in the end so many thousands of the middle easterns turn to Christ after the whole korean incident..


im so sure those koreans who gave their lives up for God would be willing to do it all over again if they knew what God's plan was.. if they knew that thousands of souls would be saved because they gave their lives up for God, im sure they would offer no resistence.. cos i sure wouldn't..



so though i dunno what God's plan is in taking mr loh away.. i stand tall and strongt and proclaim that my God knows what He is doing.. and i am sure in some way He is working through this ordeal.. who knows, it might trigger something in the hearts of all njcians.. and nj might become a christian school.. whahah



the Lord gives and He takes away. blessed be the name of the Lord on High!!
indeed out Lord gives alot to us.. so who are we to complain when He takes away.. just believe that everything He does is for our good.. because He loves us too much to hurt us.. (: