AHH!!! i really feel promos over already.. can't bring myself to study bio at all.. dang, i must do well for bio and show mrs khoo i can do it one!! she hates me.. sigh.....

lol, ok ok i promise i will study tml.. )):

anyway, chem was really quite alright.. it was MUCH better than expected.. lol.. i think i can pass!! whee.. this is so exciting! lol.. siao already..

ok, i have nothing much to say la.. just felt like blogging.. anyway, just watched the president star charity's rendition of the high school musical songs.. oh man.. total injustice to it la!! the "get cha head in the game" thing was horrid!! they were totally unprofessional la.. the balls can drop somemore.. and they practiced for so many months, sigh.. this only goes to show singapore really had no talent.. only brains.. how sucky can that get?! lol

i want to seriously learn the bass guitar.. after promos i'll be much much free-er so i can afford the time.. but who on earth will teach me for FREE?!? lol.. im a really slow student somemore.. crap la.. but i want i want.. i really want.. hur hur.. brain dead ramblings now..

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let's see.. after 4 papers and 2 more left.. i guess i am pretty excited.. but remembering how i screwed up pretty much everything just leaves me feeling all moody and sad..

GP- i fear a little for my essay la.. cos i know i can do much better.. when i was actually writing it i was thinking to myself that i will only scrape a pass.. maybe a 27/50? but overall i'll be happy with a pass la.. just aiming a C for GP ma.. compre was... alright la.. but my AQ the evaluation part i crapped out an example.. lol.. anyhow give statistics and say it's from TIMES somemore.. sigh,wadeva la..

ECONS- OMG.. freak.. i'll open champagne and celebrate if i get a S.. case study was ok la.. maybe can get 18/30.. but my essays were totally screwed!! i didnt finish the paper.. 15 marks CONFIRM gone.. then the parts of the essay that i did complete?.. was total crap.. and no, it's not intelligent crap.. it's crappy crap.. it's worse than tze wei's crap.. im scared.. i really am.. i need a D D S S.. )):

CHINESE- amazingly.. chinese is my best subject!! no... dun be disgusted with me abi.. it's just chinese is so easy compared to everything else.. hope to get A?.. but my essay was a little screwed.. cos the title was something like <this parting will be very long...> *bad translation but ya.. get the idea* so i wrote about the sad sad event of qian leaving us to pursue her life long dream.. but i write super long le then i realised i dunno wad vet is in chinese.. and u know wad i wrote in desperation?? dong wu yi shen.. omg.. i hope the teachers dun laugh too hard.. :X

MATHS- maths maths maths.. i cried today when i got home.. 20 marks GONE just like that cos my brain chose to space out.. the moment i handed up the paper i thought of how to do the damn 10 mark qns.. and after nao discussed with me, i realised another 10 mark qns that i could actually have done but i skipped cos my brain drew blanks.. my heart felt like it was being stabbed real hard.. and the knife was twisting away, causing blood to gush out of my wound.. im really damn sad.. a potential B gone.. clinging on to the tiny hope that i can get a D for maths now..

it's chem tomorrow and bio on tuesday and that's the end le.. i really feel like giving up on chem especially since hard work on maths did not lead to rich rewards.. wad about chem la, wont it be worse.. still have probs dealing with failure.. DARN IT!! wads wrong with me.. shucks, guess i'll just do organic la, since it's impt.. the rest just.. sigh.......

just an E or S for chem and i'll be fine.. and hopefully a B or C for bio.. and i'll be contented.. sigh... i need a brain transplant.. nao.. how about considering being my brain donor?.. ))):

after promos i promise i'll change my blogskin.. kinda bored with it already rite?.. must change..

sigh.. this weekend gotta go get all my exam stuffs.. i dun even have a ruler(cos nao lost it.. )): ), i only have one working pen which is almost out of ink, liquid that's almost all gone too, and an ancient pencil.. u know the one that needs a sharpener.. lol.. gotta buy all the stuffs i need soon.. lol, im really unprepared..

today's sermon was really good.. the altar call too.. God really spoke so clearly to me, and i just started crying.. havent had such an encounter with God in a long time.. felt really good.. let no one say that we will never be able to tell which God is the true God till the day we die.. i say that i KNOW my God is real cos He SPEAKS to me.. He is REAL in my life..

ahh... this totally brings wonderful memories of mission trip.. cant wait!! whee!!!.. how awesome it is to pray for a person who has been mute her whole life and hear her say her first words.. to pray for a paralysed person and see her walk.. to see the blind see, to watch the deaf hear.. and most importantly, how awesome to see people come to know the one true and living God and see their lives transform! sure, providing food and blankets for the refugees take care of their physical lives, but knowing that their spiritual lives are being taken care of by God is just the best part of mission trip.. even better than witnessing all those miracles..

the more i say the more excited i am la.. totally no regrets missing prom or spending less time with my friends and family in the holidays because of mission trips.. IT'S WORTH IT!! whoo..

Let Him heal your hurts..
Let Him fill the emptiness that you know is in your hearts..
Let Him take away the sins and hatred in your lives..
Let Him love you.. because that's all He wants to do... (:

im not slacking!!.. im really not....







heehee... ): fine fine!! i am i am..

i was bored of looking for gp articles online.. so i came to blog.. had to seriously ponder whether i should blog anot after seeing abi's scary tag.. lol.. argh.. i really have no self control.. even in terms of food.. as i said, when u see me gain weight, means im stressed.. ): and IM STRESSED!! ya, i gained weight AGAIN!!.. seriously..

still remember bei's 'get fat' plan and my 'get thin' plan.. hope her plan's working out for her.. cos mine certainly isn't.. saddened.. lol.. right now im taking loads of random online tests like noeleen.. didnt bother to post it.. results for my eyes only.. heh heh.. but my studying mood's gone le.. had it for awhile u know.. was prund of myself.. by after a few days died le.. stupid brain still not functioning after that 3 push ups.. sigh..

okok.. as u can see.. i am ONE MAJOR PROCRASTINATOR.. *blushes slightly..* i gotta get back to finding *yawn* boring articles for GP.. really hope it'll be easy.. please please please... :X

2 - the Helper
Thanks for taking the test ! you chose CX - your Enneagram type is TWO (aka "The Charmer").

"I must help others"

Helpers are warm, concerned, nurturing, and sensitive to other people's needs.

How to Get Along with Me

• Tell me that you appreciate me. Be specific.
• Share fun times with me.
• Take an interest in my problems, though I will probably try to focus on yours.
• Let me know that I am important and special to you.
• Be gentle if you decide to criticize me.

In Intimate Relationships

• Reassure me that I am interesting to you.
• Reassure me often that you love me.
• Tell me I'm attractive and that you're glad to be seen with me.

What I Like About Being a TWO

• being able to relate easily to people and to make friends
• knowing what people need and being able to make their lives better
• being generous, caring, and warm
• being sensitive to and perceptive about others' feelings
• being enthusiastic and fun-loving, and having a good sense of humor

What's Hard About Being a TWO

• not being able to say no
• having low self-esteem
• feeling drained from overdoing for others
• not doing things I really like to do for myself for fear of being selfish
• criticizing myself for not feeling as loving as I think I should
• being upset that others don't tune in to me as much as I tume in to them
• working so hard to be tactful and considerate that I suppress my real feelings

TWOs as Children Often

• are very sensitive to disapproval and criticism
• try hard to please their parents by being helpful and understanding
• are outwardly compliant
• are popular or try to be popular with other children
• act coy, precocious, or dramatic in order to get attention
• are clowns and jokers (the more extroverted TWOs), or quiet and shy (the more introverted TWOs)

TWOs as Parents

• are good listeners, love their children unconditionally, and are warm and encouraging (or suffer guilt if they aren't)
• are often playful with their children
• wonder: "Am I doing it right?" "Am I giving enough?" "Have I caused irreparable damage?"
• can become fiercely protective

took the test from bei's blog.. it is so accurate.. though not entirely la..

here i am.. eating sucky dinner while doing pw.. )): LISA!! u still owe me a meal.. it has gotta be awesomely good.. im picky.. im like eating cold chicken and some disgusting bitter veggie now.. eew..

sigh.. studying has been alright... i've been following my schedule pretty strictly.. 20 more days till promos end.. CANNOT WAIT!! holiday with family.. huiqian's return.. MISSION TRIP.. yi camp (at rjc whoo!..) sigh..... yearning for my holidays already...

anyway.. my life's been pretty boring nowadays.. mug mug mug is all i do.. so even if i have the urge (sounds wrong) to blog.. it'll be a pretty boring post.. (like this one) so i have able to control my urges (sounds even worse) nowadays.. since im bored now doing pw so i thought i'll entertain myself a little. (it's not really working)

OK!! what's up with all these brackets?!?.. (i don't really know).. sigh.. im out of my mind le.. ok.. sorry u wasted like a few minutes of your precious young lives (im not talking to you lisa.. HAHA) to read this totally meaningless post.. gotta go back to my dead dead life.. see ya!!

okok, i know im breaking my 7 day rule.. bahh... but i cannot take it le la.. to others, what i have accomplished, in terms of my mugging la, i haven't done alot.. to them, maybe im where they are at if they SLACKED.. but i really feel i've done alot..

but yet........... i am not pleased with myself.. cos i cannot stand it that i feel worn out ALREADY.. when i've not even completed one subject of revision.. look at tzewei.. he mugged from 10pm to 6am.. and still he's going to mug with nao from 10am to 9pm today... sick sick sick.. im telling u.. NEVER in my life will i ever be able to do that.. 10hours is my max.. and it includes loads of breaks.. and so far i only did it twice in my whole life.. one was for sec 3 mid years and the other for the big O... -.-

that's it!! that's all im capable of.. im pathetic rite?.. i think compared to ahwei im the world's slackiest slacker!! im just hoping to SCRAPE through... y am i blogging??.. just wanna rant.. cos my mood is... i dunno how to describe....

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that is not even close.. i dunno y i feel so mixed up.. and no, it's not just studying that made me feel this way.. although i do believe it has quite a big part to play in it.. but anyway, it's just.... seeing how people change.. getting worried for them because they changed.. getting scared by the way they changed.. wondering y they changed.. trying to change them back..

i really dunno y u've become this....stranger to me.. but i really do hope u'll change back... i'll be praying for u...

this post is merely to tell u guys that this blog will not be updated for at least 7 days.. this is because sarah has to study for her promos, which she is not gonna do well in if she doesn't actually START studying.. *sigh, hopeless lazy little girl hasn't started!! im serious..*

so anyway, if u see a post in this blog within the next 7 days, please fill free to tag messages to scold and hopefully wake the poor girl up.. she needs it.. also, if u see her tagging on your tag boards, do try your best to conjure up the scariest and most threatening replies to her.. it is all for her own good as apparently she cannot control herself from going online..

please do your part to help sarah, she needs u guys.. if not, she will never change and her promos will be as wonderful as her common tests.. then u will find her graduating a year later than everyone else.. so please.. do your best to help sarah..

it's a truly worthy cause.. do occasionally send her smses reminding her to get back to studying as i believe most of the time she will not be doing that.. your time and effort in helping sarah is greatly appreciated..