.
.
not of fear but of rationality

damn the evolution of the human mind.
the narcism embodied within,
magnified egos of epic proportions.
intellect does not cancel out stupidity my friends.
rational thinking ain't what it used to be
tipping the scale of the balance of life
fall, fall away.
fall away from the truth.
and what is truth?
but a figment of your imagination
oh great minds, i am not worthy.


just ignore the above if you don't know what i am talking about. *ramble*


ve'been spamming FOB songs, sad-ish..
patrick stump is amazing..
now that is what i call talent.
the bright voice, the lyrical masterpieces..


i don't care what you think as long as it's about me
the best of us can find happiness in misery

Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart

and wait for the LORD.

Psalm 27:14

wait upon Him for His guidance and His word.

do not be impulsive.

do not be emotional.

know what God has put in your heart.

know it and remember it.

30 Even youths grow tired and weary,

and young men stumble and fall;

31 but those who hope in the LORD

will renew their strength.

They will soar on wings like eagles;

they will run and not grow weary,

they will walk and not be faint.

Isaiah 40: 30-31

you tire and wish to give up sometimes.

i get it.

but may your strength be renewed.

and surely, surely the Lord will remain faithful.

don't fly, soar.

soar on wings like eagles.

let the wind take you somewhere.

i pray.

ima gonna break my hiatus for one very special person...

i guess the chanting worked hoho, Eywa hears.... *spooky music plays*

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ABS!!!
(ok so my colour combination sucks.. like wadever..)

wowee, what a journey this lil girl has taken me on..

i am so glad to have been able to share the high and the lows with you.. so honoured to have been part of your life.. i wanna say you don't know how much you mean to me but i think you do *pokepoke* hehheh

i have witnessed the blossoming of one fine flower and i am proud to have been there to water it.. i foresee the world being blown away by one tiny dynamite :D

speaking of flowers, let's side track a lil..

during retreat i wanted to play bang! with dru and he was like ok i can go over to the girl's room and i was all eew no? you don't smelly smelly like that come in!! then john was like eh what smelly smelly! and i said girls always smell like flowers and rainbows ok! and john said... yea flower... rafflesia!

i guffawed like an unglam retard lol..

ok back to you abs..

so anyway, you have grown so much and though not all may see that, i have, and God has.. and you are so ready now it would be an absolute waste of time to wait any longer.. one word from God is better than a thousand words from Man..

i would be down there beaming at you like a proud parent! :D

thanks for all the joy and laughter you have brought to not only me but to everyone around you (darius you better tag my tagboard and agree lol)

i pray that your hunger for God will be insatiable and your fire will never burn out.. May God bless your hands, your voice and may God continue to touch the hearts of man through you.. God bless, guide and lead every step of your life... love you loadssss!!

this is for the world to know you (since we both know millions read my blog :D )

w.o.w

such grace!!

now this is what glamourous looks like..

:D

happy belated darius, i missed the mark by a couple of minutes oh wells..


i just wanna say something really really random.

if all else fails like career and marriage yadayada wise, i wanna open a book shop. librarians don't actually have time to curl up in a corner and read the books that surround them cos they are too busy picking up after brats who don't bother putting books back into their right places.

but a book shop owner! oh how great that would be!! when business is slow i can just grab and book and indulge.. mmm

i would totally be those kind of overly friendly proprietor and be all, "lemme recommend this book to you!! it took my breath away.." haha

what inspired this totally random thought?

i stepped into a book rental store recently and i couldn't stop the smile that crept upon my face.. oh how lovely those books smell!! i lovee the musty smell of old books, i could relish in them all day..

so many books, so little time.. i stumbled upon a tess gerritsen shelf and was like so tempted to rent a book! the jeffery archer column was staggering, one of the greats, that man.. at that moment in time i was upset that i wouldn't be able to bring any book home cos i had zero cash..

now if i was the shop owner..... w.o.w

ok, thus concludes my totally idiotic rant. sometimes i'm glad i'm a nerd. like if i wasn't, i wouldn't be able to comprehend the joys of reading. i'd be all, pfft books.

ignorant boobs..

p/s: if i got married, i'd still wanna be the owner of a book shop!! but i'll upgrade my dream.. my gorgeous (beauty is in the eye of the beholder kinda gorgeous) hubby and I would move to england and open a quaint little antique book store that is sorta the downstairs to our apartment. that sounds perfect really..

p/p/s: this is the start of a hiatus.was i supposed to respond?..

the one who has the power in a relationship is the one who cares less.

how ironically true.

for the one who cares more would be vulnerable, desperate some may say.

but power is not happiness.

and happiness belongs to the one who cares more, gives more.

why i needed a chick flick to teach me that, i'd never know.
someone teach me what to say...

i see him walking in the lonely alley
digs his hands deep into his pockets
he staggers, take a swig
pulls out a cigar and lights it

i see her crying in the corner
shielding her face from the world
her insecurities birthing forth
pulls a razor to her wrist and slits it

i see them running in the field
laughing with heads thrown back
they have not yet seen the ugly
pull out a crayon to draw with

i see him with a plastered smile
with girls draped all over
he lives the high life, an aristocrat
pulls out money and throws it

i see her slouching on a bench
glasses hanging from the nose
her hair disheveled and unkempt
pulls out a book and reads it

i see them with spirit and pride
screaming in rythm and in sync
they are desired, they are envied
pull out pom-poms to cheer


and they do not differ.
because they are all lost.
in the darkness they grope but they do not find.
shine light, shine.

do not be hidden says the Lord.

wow.
:) right back at you!..  i can explain what i really meant if you want me to..
wow.


wow.


the Hebrew word used for "Lord" in the pure context of the one true God is Yahweh.

this word is so sacred that the Hebrew scribes wouldn't write it all out. they took the vowels out and wrote YHWH.

it is referred to as the sacred tetragrammation, the unspeakable four letters.

it was the unmentionable name, the holy name guarded from profanity in the life of Israel.

He who must not be named.

because of his awesome power and glory.

do you realise that the Lord you serve is one so powerful and mighty that you cannot even stand being in his pure presence?

do you reduce the glory of YHWH?..

just because He is merciful and loving and desires to have a relationship with you doesn't dismiss His absolute beauty and majesty.

do not forget that you are undeserving.

but yet He chose to give.

the one so glorious that he could not be mentioned.

He chose you.

i now know what it means to be unable to do anything but worship him...