** long post again.. warned u before it'll be coming wad.. haha*

i trusted God, and in the end what happened??.. WHAT HAPPENED?!?!??!!?
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He didnt let me down of cos!! wad were u thinking?.. u of little faith.. haha



i was talking to ms chong(civics tutor) about my grades and i asked her how now brown cow?.. *ok i didnt really say that, wanted to though, heh heh..*


me: ms chong, how? i cannot keep my 4H2 right? is there anyway i can appeal or something?..

ms chong: wad r u talking about? it's not like we are gonna force u to drop..

me: YES!! the HOD came to talk to me last time and said if i don't get a D D S S, i must drop..

ms chong: but u r not even in the list of students that need to drop..

me: huh? really? so i dun need to drop?!?

ms chong: ya, dun need, but recommended la.. look at your grades!!
*then she goes into a long speech on how i must improve blah blah blah..*



i kinda switched off already la by then.. after realising i dun need to drop my combi, my head was spinning and i blocked out everything.. i was estatic!


so ya, God brought me through.. and i believe with all my heart, He will bring u through too wang..


but then, i keep experiencing UPS and DOWNS.. like seriously.. i feel like an israelite..


remember when we were young christians and when we read the israelites story, on how they were delivered out of slavery by God, but still often complained and disobeyed Him, doubted Him, even after miracle after miracle?..


well i always thought they were horrible people.. like how can they do that?! God split the freaking RED SEA for them and a moment later they were worshipping some lao pok bull..


i thought they were horrid Christians, but this week, God showed me how i was just like them..


let's start off with results day.. i got back GP and maths first and i got C for both of them.. which was pretty good for me.. i expected a D for both.. and i was thanking God profusely!!.. i thought He'd deliver me..


then came chem, econs and bio.. i did badly for all of them and then i turned around and DEMANDED an answer from God.. Y GOD DID U FORSAKE ME AND MADE ME FAIL?!?.. sound israelite-like? totally..


and when i found out i could retain my 4H2, i worshipped God! gave Him all the glory.. i reached home to announce the good news and my dad told me that the house that we were supposed to buy was sold off!! we were on the brink of signing the papers, and the stupid agent went to sell it off last min to another family who offered a measly $2000 more than us.. like wth?!?


yup, i asked God again.. y He had to ruin my good mood.. y did He allow this terrible fate to befall on us.. what now? we sold our house already, but we can't find a house to actually move into?!? i started worshipped a lao pok bull didnt i?..


often we are like that.. once disaster falls on us we forget EVERYTHING that God did for us in a SECOND.. we could even start cursing God.. y? y are we such hypocrites?!?


what i wanna say is to come out of that vicious cycle.. remember the deeds and blessing God has done for u whenever u are faced with difficulty.. what makes u think He cannot bring u through it again?..


so ya, although this post is to encourage wang, cell mates, this is for u too..


always remember that the God who snatched u up from the claws of death is all powerful, all loving.. a God that will never let u down.. let your backs never turn against Him.. let your eyes always be upon Him..


remember what He has done for u, what He can do for u.. and never doubt Him.. trust in the Lord with ALL your hearts, souls, minds and strength.. trust that He delivered u once, and He will do it again..


**ps, this blog suddenly become so christainy rite? lol.. nonsensical crap the next post, i promise.. haha.. though i love my christiany posts.. (: **


:) cheerios