I HAVE TO BLOG!! well, sept hols are here and i promised to blog so..... (although blog is half dead already..) anyway, just came back from dinner with my family and i love it cos i always learn stuff talking to my incredibly spiritual parents..


anyway, somehow the dinner topic was like this..


what does it mean to be luke warm? the bible says that if we are luke warm, God will spit us out of His mouth.. it is DISGUSTING to be luke warm.. in the olden days, cold water was used for drinking, for refreshing.. hot water was used for cooking, healing.. but luke warm water was USELESS.. it's as good as salt that isn't salty anymore, and it is better to throw it away and trample on it..


many people don't associate themselves as luke warm christians.. somehow the mentality of luke warm christians are those hypocritical pharasees who dun really love God..

"but i really do love God.. i'm not like the pharasees" and as true as that might be, who said you can't be a luke warm christian who loves Jesus..


ask yourself this, are you passionately seeking God, wanting more of Him each and everyday? i rmb our desperation for God was compared to our desperation for air when we are drowning.. honestly, is your desperation for God at that level? do you want it at that level? have you even thought of this question at all? or are you living life day to day, being contented and proud of yourself that you read your bible today?... are you contented leading a LUKE-WARM life..


if you want to be a christian, why not go all out for it?.. why not give everything you've got to pursue God?.. he certainly gave his all to pursue you.. and until now, does he have you? really.... does God have all of you?.. or are you only giving him what you think he is worthy of in terms of the amount of time and energy you devote to him.. cos lemme tell you something... he is certainly worthy of your all..


being luke-warm is REPULSIVE to God.. i don't want to be repulsive to God... do you? i want to give him all i've got.. every ounce of my strength i want to give to him.. every second of my time.. every drop of blood.. everything.. God is waiting.. will you let him wait for you?..


we all detest those people who wait till they are on their very death beds to accept Jesus.. so no responsibility has to come.. don't you hate that?? but God still accepts them.. but do you recognise that we can be very similar to them in our attitudes towards God?..


when we know we're gonna die, when we know our life hasn't exactly been the most spectacular life that was God-led, when we know we've not done much with God's son... then we fear what we're gonna say in front of Him when He asks what have we done?...


too late?? you bet.. but it's not too late now.. do something about it..

ok, umm.. this will be the last blog post until the sept holidays.. so savour and enjoy!!..



well, since it's gonna be a loooonnnggg time till my next post, i was wondering whether i should do a serious/inspiring one, or a whatever/nonsense stupid post... and since i can't decide, let's see where my brain leads me.....



oh oh!! i read lisa's post about improving your memory etc, and since i totally need a memory space boost, i decided to read the article.. to my utmost dismay.. carbo retards you.. HAHA!! as if gaining weight from carbo aint enough, it actually dulls your memory or something like that.. oh, and guess what? i was muching on some bread when i was reading the stupid article.. haha, i seriously hope it was written by some looney quack and CARBO IS ACTUALLY GOOD FOR YOU!!... )):



haha, anyway, just so you know, fish is good for memory.. and all those people who wanna bulk up with protein overload, AVOID TOFU!! tofu makes you stupid too!!... hmm, i always thought tofu was good for you la... this article person is sounding more and more like a fake.. haha, yup, still holding on to the tiny hope that carbo doesn't retard you.. haha



anyway, my mom said i gained weight.. like visibly.. i was so sad i wanted to perform self liposuction... HAHA, nahh.. i know la.. when i'm stressed i binge.. and oddly, i dun like eating meals when im stressed, i just wanna chow down on chocolates and chips and all the junk food that adds layers of fats around your waist and thighs.. (: yumm



weishun, im waiting for your chocolates huh.. final warning i tell u!! or else i'll hang a pig head at your door... OWE CHOCOLATE PAY CHOCOLATE... then i pour gasoline............... u better watch out!!
haha.. sigh, i guess my brain is somehow more inclined towards being stupid.. i should stop hanging out with lisa.. SHE retards me.. haha



read ong's blog too, ahh!! *jealous* he has time to watch movies and stuff.. i tell u, the first thing i'm gonna do after As is to MARATHON ALL MY SHOWS!! besides english dramas like prison break, lost and heroes.. i'll borrow korean dramas!! and and i'll borrow tons of chick flicks!! PHOOP!!! so exciting!! very hard to find people to marathon with me.. the last person i did it with was with wang at huiqian's house sleepover.. we watched 4 to 5 movies together straight.. when the rest were sleeping already..



i loovvee it.. my sisters scoff at me for having no life.. haha, but oh well.. that's what i love to do what.. just cuddling under layers of the blanket and pillows and stuff... with people u love hanging out with.. crying at tragedies, laughing at comedies, sighing longingly at chick flicks with hot guys in them.. HAHA!!



ooo... talking about crying at the movies.. i have to announce one thing...


WEIYAN AND ANATHAN ALMOST CRIED WATCHING MONEY NO ENOUGH TOGETHER!!!


lol, when lisa told me i just laughed.. the mental picture formed is just hilarious.. seriously, like they cuddling each other, tearing.. offering each other tissues.. haha, they are funny people.. (:



okok, i really gotta get back to studying.. it sounds like i'm this no life mugger right... well, that's true la.. but before i go... anyone interested in movie-marathoning with me pls say!!! i want i want.. ((: cheerios!!

i skipped school today... DON"T JUDGE ME!!... i sooooo wanted to stay home, and study.. but lo and behold, here i am blogging?...


*where am i?... how did i get here?.... ?!!? i'm blogging?,,, nono, in my memory im studying... what's happening??.. AHHH!! i need to study!!.. i need to study!!.....*


i need more chocolate.. chocolate makes me happy... the box of mini poppers lisa and gang bought for me was gone in a flash.. with a family as BIG and GREEDY as mine... (sigh) weishun, where's the chocolates u said u'd get me??


my mom said something that made me... i dunno, wince when i heard.. me and my sis were just discussing A level stuff (cos we're taking it together this year..) and my mom jokingly said to me, "why don't u pray that your results will be given to your sister? haha, anyway u don't need it, you are going to bible college in the end wad.."


and my sister enthusiastically agreed.. haha, that wasn't the wince-worthy part yet... then my mom just had to ruin the funny moment and said, " no la, God made u smart for a reason.. who knows, maybe instead of just being a missionary, u can be a doctor and go to the places to heal people!.." and she went on and on about being smart..


that was wince-worthy.. i'll bet my face looked like i just sucked a lemon.. "God made u smart for a reason.." i wonder when was the last time i felt smart?.. oh oh i know!!.. about 2 years ago.. before i stepped into the horrid place called National Junior College..


of cos im not blaming the school, neither am i blaming the people in the school.. it's just the suckiest feeling ever.. to feel like your ONE and ONLY talent is taken away from u.. all my life, i was merely the smart one.. can't sing, can't dance, ain't the prettiest thing.. i could only solve maths problems really quickly.. wow, sounds amazing huh..


as i grew up, passed the O level stage, i felt my smartness draining away.. i can't go to school one day without feeling stupid now.. who failed the chem test? oh sarah again... it sucks, it really sucks.. i cant even begin to describe it, feeling like u're left here being good at nothing anymore.. it so doesn't help when u have 3 beautiful sisters.. who can sing, play multiple musical instruments, is a whiz at sports...


so i had a conversation with God.. he never fails to pick me up..

me: why do i only have one stupid talent that im already losing.. why do u create me to be just this?..

God: you are not just smart, u have the greatest gift among your sisters, and among many.. u can hear my voice..

me: *suddenly realise that im quite special* ..... that's right.. i can hear u, im close to u..

God: would u rather have many wordly talents, or be sensitive to me?..

me: OF COS to be sensitive to you!..

God: see? i know what im doing..

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so there and then i realised that we are created perfectly, God knows what he is doing.. honestly i'd rather be the most untalented human being on earth, and yet have this relationship i have with God now.. than to be envied by many, and yet go home and feel empty inside, questioning the very purpose of my existence on earth..
(im not saying that everyone that is glamly talented doesn't have this close relationship with God.. im just saying that as long as i have this relationship, i really feel that i dun need anything else..)


i was created for bigger and greater things.. WE were created for bigger and greater things.. why allow the devil to pull u down, make u feel lousy, when we are God's children, created in His image.. i am special, and so are u..


insecurity is something that everyone struggles with.. insecurity is something that everyone can be defeated by.. and yet, insecurity is something that everyone can defeat.. KNOW that u r perfect..

i know i promised to finish up the birthday thing, but it doesn't seem apt anymore, it's like too late.. although i really have to thank LISA from the bottom of my heart for all the preparations and stuff, i'll bet it wasn't easy.. (: thanks lisa!!!


anyway, these few days have been tough.. the word "study" now brings shivers down my spine.. i wish i could just give up and just do badly.. what's the worse that could happen?.... unfortunately, the answer to that question is LOTS OF BAD THINGS COULD HAPPEN!!...


but im appreciative, that even when im stressed up, the people whom i love never stop giving me support.. it's tough times like these that really make you realise how important these people are.. and i thank them, from the bottom of my heart..


thank you lisa, andyONG, ana, weiyan and junhong for coming over.. haha, though it was totally unexpected and i could have looked better (sigh lisa why never gimme warning, then i can like make my hair nicer etc.. haha!!) but i felt loved.. (: i did.. haha, at least from lisa and ong la.. people like ana, come for my sisters only (saddened) and weiyan.. come to piss me off only.. haha


i would safely say that the best thing that has happened to me this year is getting to know these people better.. weiyan, ana and ong are genuine people, whom i can be genuine to too... it's the best feeling u know, knowing that u won't be judged for being you!.. (: so thank you guys, for entering into my life.. ok, not weiyan, i hate weiyan.. HAHA!! he never tell me where he rebond his hair!! his hair soooo nice, i wanna know where he did it!!


even on saturday night as we were sitting in buddies/macs.. we weren't doing anything in particular, just hanging out and chatting, but it was still fun, very fun.. and weiyan and his disgusting stories were HILARIOUS!!.. there's no pressure with these people, i can laugh super unglamly and still feel comfortable, cos i know right there beside me is someone laughing super unglamly too... (mostly it's lisa la.. HAHA!!)


oh!! and i can't forget weishun, cos he's been nice too.. with his sushi making skills and all.. haha, wow, can't believe i actually dedicated a post to them!! not worth it!! change topic!! haha


nahh... im not so evil.. im a nice, encouraging, demure and dainty little girl!!!!!!!! roar, u better believe it.. haha, ok folks.. gotta go back to... *shudder* studying................ sigh, LORD give me strength.. and more wisdom, cos i need it.. loads of it..


and before i go.. just to irritate weiyan... okok okok okok okok okok okok okok okok okok okok!!!

okok.. i know im blogging when i said i wouldn't.. but i can't take it anymore ok?! anyway, i feel like i deserve some rest cos i studied with nao from 9am all the way to 6pm WITHOUT STOPPING!! ok, almost without stopping at all.. we only had a lunch break that took like 20mins, and thru the whole course i only took a 15 min break(nap)..


umm.. fine, actually i stopped studying at around 5 pm la.. and we slacked and did rubbish while waiting for her dad to come.. but all in all, still about a solid 7.5 hrs?? how many ppl can do that?!? sigh, so i feel i deserve a break..


anyway, this thing very impt.. must blog.. it's my long awaited post on my birthday!! i had a totally awesome wonderful birthday!! the best one of my life.. like after 18 years, it was time i got a good birthday huh?.. haha... anyway, i really wanna thank all the pple involved in giving me a great 3-day celebration.. haha


first up was in NJ.. i wasn't really expecting much la cos i know in typical NJC fashion, with prelims just around the corner, my birthday isn't a big deal la.. no need for the hassle of planning etc.. but i was wrong!! they really love me!! haha.. well, ms ang didnt come that day and so we had a free period.. and we all went to the library to mug, dun waste time u know.. then after that zixin and charlene say they have to photocopy something, they go canteen first, once we're done go canteen find them.. so i thought nothing of it la, and continued studying..


when i went to the canteen, i was talking to michelle and suddenly.. bryan's thundering voice filled the air.. "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...." i turned around, mouth agape.. and then everyone else joined in the chorus.. the feeling was very nice, like i truly felt blessed to be in NJ with those lovely people.. (for a few moments i forgot all about the horrors of the school..)


and charlene bought me a beautiful nike waterbottle! the blue one...


ahh... beautiful rite.. and mich and zixin bought me stuff too!!..



A METAL PENCIL BOX!! which looks really much cooler than it does here la.. and of cos, mich just had to agitate me and said she got me that bag cos it had my picture on it.. or something like that.. sigh, that greay thing is hideous can.. lol, but i appreciate it!!


that night, went over to HUIQIAN'S house for steamboat!! and took many many pictures la!! so happy!! seriously.. i love the L2 gang to bits.. though noeleen and bei weren't there, but i still loved every moment spent with those people..


i ate till i wanted to explode, really.. i have no self control man.. )): enjoy these very random pictures la.. i only choose those that i dun look so fat in.. cos i really was super bloated then.. haha!!



sigh... see this wonderful crazy people?? wang, sorry for humiliating u like this.. but this face is really TOO FUNNY TO NOT BLOG ABOUT!!! ahah, stupid wang.. she and nao wanna take picture, then nao accidentally put to timer.. then nao was like "hurry wang!! it's timer!! no time le!! just do a stupid face!!" and wang did this....... sigh.. haha!!


anyway, if u look at the first photo carefully.. many would be distracted by tzewei digging his nose with 2 fingers, but the real funny part of this photo is.. COW'S FACE!! it's like?!?!? (cow is the one beside nose-picking tzewei) HAHAH!! hilarious man... okok, no time le... photos took forever to upload..

this is only part one of my awesomest awesome birthday!! so stay tuned for part 2 ok?!? ((: