well it's almost the third day of the new year and.......... im not happy!!


everyone i know seems to be real excited about the new year, ok skipping the fact that school is starting/has started for them, they are all welcoming the new year with open arms!! that pisses me off... i'm the grinch of the new year..


ask me why!!! ask me why i'm not happy!!


*chorus of WHYs*


ok, i shall tell u why!!


firstly, i can't seem to find a job!! ppl have the misconception that im lazy and CHOOSE to laze around doing nothing all day.. THAT IS NOT TRUE!!! i've sent in my resume to this job-seeking company (they are apparently not very good cos guess wad, IM STILL JOBLESS!!) i've ADVERTISED for tution kids ( ok,on my blog that has an average of 0.8 readers per day) i've requested for help from my friends.. i've requested for help from my ex-teachers.. NOTHING!!!


i guess im pretty unwanted... ): i need the cash ppl!! helpppp meeeeeee.. notice is need, not want the cash ok..


secondly, i still dunno wad i wanna do in uni.. not a single clue.. honestly.. it's not like i've not been seeking God about it.. i have and still am!! but once again NOTHING!!! wad am i supposed to do huh?!?! wait somemore HUH?!?! TELL ME!!! HUH?!??!
ok i'll wait....


thirdly, it's gonna be chinese new year soon.. my most dreaded holiday.. u know why? cos i have extremely nosy and inappropraite/annoying/tactless relatives... that means, i GOTTA have:
- a job by CNY or they will judge me and label me as a lazy loser
- a smaller body (meaning lose weight, alot of weight) or they'll be poky poky at my fats and comment AGAIN
- new clothes and shoes, a hassle to get honestly.. oh well..


fourthly, i feel old.. it's a weird feeling.. i dunno why i feel like that but i do.. haha, one of life's unexplainable mysteries i guess..


see?? im not in a very HAPPYnewyear mood.. my poor darius is down with chicken pox!! darn.. i need him!!.. grrr... u know wad would make me feel better? some chocolate.... but i can't have that why?? cos of the third reason for hating the new year, plus it's my first resolution!!! sigh..

i miss 2008 haha

okok, but ima gonna look ahead... look forward to a better tomorrow!! (wow, i can totally compose cheesy chinese songs la..)