i'm so sorry i couldn't send u off huiqian!! i was really sick.. i think i'm going to go home early tomorrow.. after the lectures.. cos i had slight fever in the day.. just feel very super unwell.. dunno y like that.. after a bad night, everything seems wrong.. or maybe it's just the overstuffing of new year goodies taking their effect now.. sigh...................


anyway, i've been thinking about something.. i watched heroes season one again recently.. and peter petrelli was a nurse and he was a good one.. having good relationships with his patients, and really being able to speak into their lives (sort of).. but later he quit cos he felt he was made for something bigger.. he didn't want to save lives one at a time, he wanted to do something more impactful.. in the end, he saved new york from exploding.. yada yada yada..


i was just thinking.. did he really do something more impactful as a nurse of as a "hero".. sure, he saved their lives, but being able to speak into people's lives.. isn't that more impactful? i dunno.. lol, im blabbering.. but.. i just feel it's more of a blessing to be able to impact the lives of individuals..


i've said before that i want to be someone whom when dead, people still remember.. and people would say that she has really changed my life and impacted it.. i suppose that could be achieved by saving their lives, but i would want it in a more personal level.. lol.. if you don't understand what im saying.. im guessing u won't be alone.. lol! i'm really just typing what's at the top of my head.. not pre-drafting this at all..



lalala, just ignore this i guess.. lol.. ):