it is now 3.30pm and i just woke up from a loong loong nap.. yes, i obviously was not studying during the nap, but i don't feel guilty at all.. i think i deserve a good rest.. my body is breaking down.. did you know i started having the kind of flu with GREEN mucus again?... sigh, signs of heatiness to my mom.. signs of great stress to me..



did i have a stressful week? yes.. did i have an upsetting week? yes... but did i have a good week?.. YES YES YES...

thanks to all who showed concern for me.. i read lisa's blog, and my sentiments exactly.. it is all worth it.. the stress, the tears that they've brought me?.. well, i'd choose to go through it all again for what i have with them now.. hearing them tell me that they love me.. knowing that they are concerned for me.. listening to them try to console me.. realising i'm not alone for they stand with me...



i love esther, abi and mabel for they make me laugh.. at them/with them, they just do and i appreciate every moment of it.. i love darius although he calls at the worst of times, but he calls... i love kirby cos he's brave enough to tell me that he loves me, i know it takes alot for a guy to say that, and he does.. i love shaun cos he tells me things only a true friend would say.. i love alastair cos i see him try to be strong for me.. i love everyone of them.. too many to name right now, but know that i love you...



and i may not be able to care in a bigger capacity right now, but believe me i want to so so much.. i can only imagine the kind of pain SHE is going through right now.. i want to be there for her cos i know how much it is hurting.. not the extent of it, but i know it hurts.. and one day when i have to do the same thing, i can only hope that they can do the same for me too.. but even if they don't, i know my whole journey has been worth it.. every single second of it..



sigh, im tearing up again.. must be because i'm listening to ong's guitar piece as i type this.. it's a beautiful piece i must say, very well played.. it touches my soul.... isn't is funny that you realise how much you've got, how much God had given you, how much you've been blessed with, ONLY WHEN YOU TAKE THE TIME YOU SIT BACK AND LOOK AT IT ALL.......