this is just a totally random thought..


can you be TOO selfless?? as in always giving, never recieving, till the point of certain breakdown?


not like im going through it in any way la, but is it possible? i actually really think it is.. i mean how can anyone give up everything for everyone else but himself, and yet not feel like it's not worth it?..


like my sister is always asking me for help in her maths, and it's almost as if i am expected to help her, that no gratitude is needed at all in return.. it's not as if i crave her appreciation, it's just i feel like i always help her in her work-without any gratitude, and then no one helps me in my work, yet no one feels like there's a problem there..


and by no means am i saying that i'm a holy selfless saint, cos i know i'm not.. but even giving up this little time and effort to help my own sister, without getting any appreciation back, bothers me.. so how much can a normal person give before he feels he needs to recieve?..


i guess it all boils down to how much you love the people that you are giving your everything to.. i mean look at Jesus when he was about to be captured and crucified.. he was sweating drops of BLOOD.. i can only imagine how he felt, ok actually, i can't imagine..


the fear, the distress, the anxiety.... the always-existing thought if this is worth it or not.. to die or not to die... how scary does that sound?...


and yet in the end he still did it, as he hung there.. dying, as the very people he was dying for mocked him, spat on him... he didn't call the whole thing off and requested that angels sweep him away, but he hung there, accepting the fact that he was dying for people who didn't appreciate it.. not one bit..


i guess that's food for thought... how much do u love the people that u're sacrificing for?.. for me, the love's probable minute compared to the love of my Jesus..


and just for the record, i sure am 100% grateful for what he did on that cross.......