went studying with tzewei today at the library.. saddened that wang couldn't make it.. i miss her so so so much!! she was my pillar of support in sec school la.. the only one i could turn to in school for spiritual stuff.. (: I MISS U WANG!!


anyway, obviously i didn't study much, i was in holiday mood!! and tzewei was in front of me... so... lol, not very productive la.. i kept trying to distract him from studying to talking crap, and i guess i succeeded a few times though he did quite alot.. haha.. im a horrible person and im quite sure i'll fail my 2nd math test again..


goals i wanna reach in the holidays:

1. finally watch finish my girl
2. cut my hair
3. buy new shoes
4. study for math test
5. finish math revision package
6. finish carbonyl compounds tutorial
7. lose like 2 kgs?
8. catch up on SLEEP
9. spend more time will cell mates
10. read finish philip yancey's "prayer"


yup, that's my top ten list in no particular order.. the hardest for me would be 4 to 7? 1,8, 9 and 10 would be a pleasure to do.. (: ah well.. i guess i really have to sort out my priorities.. studies studies studies.. it's killing me..


tzewei said something that struck me today.. he said " u r not as smart as u were last time" and i totally agree!! so please pple, stop thinking that i'm alright, im the smart one, i can handle my studies.. cos that's what my family thinks and it hurts cos i get no support from them, and on top of that, i have to help my sisters out in their studies and no one helps me.. cos they think i can handle it..


and i bet few pple know that i failed 3 out of my 4 subjects last year? well ya, i'm not doing well.. so stop thinking i am.. i need support and help too.. cos i feel helpless now.. and yes, it;s pathetic to ask for support, but i guess i just really really need it.. feeling kinda down now, as you can tell.. lol.. argh, enough of ramblings.. this is going nowhere..


tata pple ): <--(notice it's a sad face, not a happy one.. )