why am i so weak?.. why do i always fall for the same trick over and over again?.. i'm tired.. yes, i'm crying.. maybe cos it's that time of the month.. maybe the devil is working over-time on me.. well, he's winning so far.. cos disappointment, sadness, everything that pulls me down engulfs me..



i feel like giving up.. why should i even bother right?......



yet i know the answer to that question is wrong... i want to be used by you, but is it really meant to be that hard?..



what is wrong?.. is it cos i haven't relied on you enough?.. maybe...



prayer prayer prayer........



wow, thanks God, for speaking to me even as i type this depressing blog...



uh, no need to rant anymore.. this is amazing, experiencing God this way.. umm, never before..



i think as u're reading this you're lost.. haha, that's probably cos u dun know how long this post took to be posted?.. it took a long time.. lol



stopped halfway and prayed.. lol.. ermm.. *awkward silence*


till next time?...