well, just came home from Day 1 of surgery exposure.. i learnt alot, saw alot.. saw WAYYY alot.. umm, i dunno if it was innocence or stupidity, but i never knew people went into surgical theaters.... naked


): imagine my shock when the patient got wheeled in and they started taking all the layers of blankets of HIM.. i didnt recoil at his wounds (one of his legs just got amputated from the knee down and the other had some steel bars sticking out of it, acting as support for the bones) i recoiled at something else..


it was horrifying.. i wanted to hide in the arms of the doctor and start sobbing or something.. brought back terrifying memories.. which reminds me, i used to be closer to justin and yeehong.. haha, wad happened? hmm


roar, i hope i don't get nightmares tonight..


anyway, there was this other patient's surgery i witnessed and i was too engrossed in watching everything i forgot to ask wad happened to her.. umm, she like had a hole in her abdomen man.. anyway, she's fat.. and well, i could see it.. the layers of fat accumulated under the skin of her abdomen..


sick sick sick, it was so sick.. it made me wanna lose weight haha.. it looked like raw pork really..


im not squeamish at blood (thank goodness for that) but uh.. being a surgeon takes guts man.. guts that i dun have haha.. being a GP is fine by me (:


tomorrow's another surgery day.. i hope all the patients i get to witness are females.. please please please be females..


anyway, i wanna make a public apology to weiyan, anathan and xavier.. oh and ada.. ): still feel guilty for not lunching with them when they came all the way down to.. i had a meeting to attend so i couldn't.. having a job eats away precious time.. that's what i hate the most about it..


i miss hanging out with them.. it feels like it has been such a long long time.. :


i wanna go out with 3mao they all too!! the original settlers gang.. :(


and then there's still the cell.. i wish i had 40 hours a day..