The wounds are still fresh. Too fresh.
And they need time to heal.
And they will heal.
That is if we stop picking at the scabs.
I want to be completely objective when I say this.
Do I agree with the decision? Honestly no.
Am I happy where I am now? It's no Acts 1 I'll say..
But am I trying? Yes.
And I hope y'all will be able to say that.
Ultimately I am accountable to God and God alone.
I am responsible for my own spiritual life.
I want to be completely blameless before God.
And to be blameless, I do His commands.
When that encompasses "submitting to authority" I do it.
Because I fear and revere the Almighty.
Not cos I respect or agree with them.
But cos I want to OBEY God.
Cheesy yes but not irrational. Great throught has gone into this.
If I am responsible for my own life, and they are theirs, then when we all meet Him I want to be able to say I did my best.
I did try.
Whatever happens after my utmost effort ( and be honest about this now, it's not like God can't see your hearts ) is not my fault.
But if I didn't try, I allow a blame to be put on me.
What if I did try? Could the results have been different?
Questions that don't matter at the end of a failed day.
So why ask?
At the very end, God will vindicate us if they were indeed at fault.
But for now when ambiguity sets in like a thick choking fog, no one knows who's right or wrong.
Right now, what the right thing to do for us is to go in with open hearts.
For the possibility that the decision made is right still remains.
And till the day that possibility dissipates or otherwise, we will go into this with positivty and a heart of obedience.
To God.
Not to Man.
Obey Him.
And remember, to not try is to fail.
To try buys a chance of success.
And they need time to heal.
And they will heal.
That is if we stop picking at the scabs.
I want to be completely objective when I say this.
Do I agree with the decision? Honestly no.
Am I happy where I am now? It's no Acts 1 I'll say..
But am I trying? Yes.
And I hope y'all will be able to say that.
Ultimately I am accountable to God and God alone.
I am responsible for my own spiritual life.
I want to be completely blameless before God.
And to be blameless, I do His commands.
When that encompasses "submitting to authority" I do it.
Because I fear and revere the Almighty.
Not cos I respect or agree with them.
But cos I want to OBEY God.
Cheesy yes but not irrational. Great throught has gone into this.
If I am responsible for my own life, and they are theirs, then when we all meet Him I want to be able to say I did my best.
I did try.
Whatever happens after my utmost effort ( and be honest about this now, it's not like God can't see your hearts ) is not my fault.
But if I didn't try, I allow a blame to be put on me.
What if I did try? Could the results have been different?
Questions that don't matter at the end of a failed day.
So why ask?
At the very end, God will vindicate us if they were indeed at fault.
But for now when ambiguity sets in like a thick choking fog, no one knows who's right or wrong.
Right now, what the right thing to do for us is to go in with open hearts.
For the possibility that the decision made is right still remains.
And till the day that possibility dissipates or otherwise, we will go into this with positivty and a heart of obedience.
To God.
Not to Man.
Obey Him.
And remember, to not try is to fail.
To try buys a chance of success.
posted by sarah at 12:54 AM
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*pats*
i understand you.. and i agree :)
Right, agreed.
:)
I don't know what you were were struggling with. And really it doesn't matter. Your words of wisdom are greatly appreciated through a horrible time of suffering. I am a disbabled man of 34 years of age. I have an incurable chronic condition. I wanted to say thank you. THANK YOU. I had a failed day as well. I tried to show some one the truth about something but failed to realize they might be part of the lie. But, to not try is to fail. I don't know where I heard those words. They came to me the other day when I was arguing with some one. I was looking up who originally said this and I came across your blog. I sit here sad still. You see this treatment I am on causes depression. Plus so does my condition. But,you are a light. It good to know there is some one left with the same morals and values on humanity. I to must obey and continue with my life like things are all good. I will remain the good son. Serving in whatever capacity I can with my dying breath. Praise Jesus for life. Because that is our chance to try. Our chance to show him how much we cared. Our chance to have one day in his courts. And one day in his courts is better than an eternity in hell. All the best to you and yours,and may the holy spirit bless you.
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