I've figured it out. The secret of success that is.



People ask me how do I love God more? How do i grow closer to Him? mundane questions, and the list goes on.



Here's a thought : how about making Him all you think of? consume your thoughts like I said.



It's so easy to let things roll off your tongue that way. Stringing words together than sound spiritual and make sense, BAM, you get a good message.



But I have witnessed it. The manifestation of something that sounds so easy to start on and yet is so absurdly impossible to accomplish.



How can one walk away from a debatably "heated discussion" on the hypocrisy of worship and not be burdened by the political situation, but be pondering upon if she has committed it herself.



Distractions. Holy distractions.
I wish to rid myself of them.
As much as I enjoy sitting in a circle discussing controversy,
I can attest to how simple life can be if one would filter everything else out and concentrate on the only thing that matters. The thing we claim we come for. The One we claim we come for.



I wonder to myself, perhaps I slightly enjoy the mishaps and disasters. It allows me to feel better about myself as I sit back and point a finger, with occasional wagging.



Perhaps i enjoy the *gasp* judging I bestow.



At the end of the day, why does it matter?



Discussions end. Actions are then not meted out.
The stirring of emotions which mayhap caused the stroking of one's ego?



Question: If I am a God-loving, God-fearing individual, will God place upon me responsibilities few are deemed worthy of?



I would think that is a yes.



Could it be could it be, that if I reach a level of intimacy like that of Jesus (we are called to be little Christs anyway) God would reveal to me a plan. Possibly a revolutionary plan. A plan that could turn everything around resulting in an Acts church.



Impossible? Why nothing is, isn't it?



That be said, would I be helping the situation if I simply work on my own walk with God? To care less about the politics, the hunt for flaws that are yet to be unearthed.. To conduct less speeches that reek of grievences.



What if all it took was for me to draw closer to God myself?



I really just want to be rid of all cynicsm.
Flow? maybe..



food for thought. this is one heavy meal, I must say..



( and i wonder why nobody reads my blog haha.. PLEASE IGNORE IF YOU DO NOT KNOW WHAT I AM TALKING ABOUT!! do not attempt to understand really.. it's probably not worth it..)