im struggling to catch my breath.. just one breath is all i ask for.. but yet i can't grasp it.. fatigue is setting in.. i feel every part of my body telling me to stop.. but i cant, i really cant..... i cant afford to stop for a rest.. my brain is rebelling against me.. it simply refuses to do any more work.. i push and i push, commanding it to obey, but it has reached it's limit.. y is it's limit so small?! i ask myself that question..

since stuffing info into my tiny brain dun work, i try retriving past info to do my tutorials.. but all i draw is blanks.. banging my head on the table doesnt help.. my brain is dead.. i knock my head lightly and i can hear a faint hollow sound.. has my brain abandoned me?

i feel like crying.. i want to give up.. maybe i'm not NJ material.. maybe i really do need one more year than everyone else.. with 5 weeks left to promos, i doubt i'll make it..

dear Lord, i pray that u help me in my times of need.. without u i cannot do anything.. i pray for your wisdom and your strength in my life.. i need u in my life.. i really do..
BE WITH ME....