hmm.. ignore my previous post.. for those who attended the funeral, they'll prob know i feel much better and why too.. so ya, im fine.. so emo la the last post.. so not me.. LOL

after missing 3 days of school, i feel so lost.. after foolishly thinking i can skip the test since i didnt go school on tues, im told i have to take it tml.. DARN IT!! u know wad.. im not gonna bother.. study last min, get stressed up, and end up possibly failing.. why go through all this turmoil.. im just gonna prepare myself for failure and then graciously accept it..

just read nao's post and im so sorry i couldn't be there for her that day... but i so totally understand how she feels about school.. its no more ordinary dislike.. it's total loathe.. im DISGUSTED with school.. im thinking i'll prob say i miss nj alot after 2 years and blah blah.. but for now, i dun see any incentive for me to go to school.. ok mayb incentive isnt the right word.. there isnt even any upside at all.. NADA ZERO ZIP.. everyday it's just plain dragging myself to school, dragging myself through classes and dragging myself home.. (dragging home part is cos of exhuastion.. im happy to go home) ok, maybe touch rug trainings are kinda fun.. but thats it..

i bet my pw group's hating me now.. cos i didnt contribute anything for the gpp presentation since i didnt go school and stuff.. well, there's nothing i can do.. im behind in everything again.. after horribly working so hard to be on track.. i dun blame anyone.. im guessing a few people in class are saying that im very slack and i skip school so many times blah blah.. well i'll have u know i'd rather go through stupid school for the 3 days that i missed and still have my uncle around ok.. so get off my back..

this is turning out to be a rather long post.. mainly cos i dun feel like stopping and getting offline and then am forced to do some work since i dun have anything else to do le.. i just wanna be preoccupied with stuff so i dunnit to face my school work.. i just discovered im the kind of person who will run away from problems or pretend they're not there.. hmm, is that good? or maybe it's just schoolwork.. other things i settle them fine.. great.. now im just talking to myself.. lol..

u know sometimes i really want the L2 peeeps to ignore work once in a while.. like that time the outing some actually went home to mug.. i know studies are impt and we cant fail tests and stuff.. but times like these, after i feel so emotionally and physically drained after everything i just want everyone to drop everything and go out and have some fun.. selfish huh.. tsk tsk, i know.. but HONESTLY, if anyone requests that i do that, i would really gladly do it.. just drop everything and spend time together.. lol... wow, i can really digress.. start talking about L2 peeps again..

i know i know.. it's probably time to stop typing nonsense and get back to work.. i gotta call nao and ask her what i missed and stuff.. my fingers aint listening to me!! they keep typing.. i cant control it!! ARGH!!!!!! can't wait for holidays... ))))):